young mummy

YOUNG MONEY CASH MONEY

2012-03-01T18:06:00.001+08:00

It's the beginning of a new month - March.

7th: Rayyan turns 8 months
10th: My 1st wedding anni

I know it won't take long till Ray turns a year young. (Yes, I prefer young.) So I'd like to put my mind into his birthday party plans. I feel like doing a themed-party. Perhaps at a chalet. And all young mummies are invited! To bring along their kids of course! Well don't wanna say big.. God willing.
Kalau ada rezeki, boleh lah buat. :)

UP FOR IT?

2012-02-29T15:08:00.001+08:00

CLICK TO KNOW MORE

Ok so I came across this nuffnang ad which you can always check out & do me a favour by clicking it, preferably with interest, at the bottom of my blog.

Cathay Cineleisure Orchard is organising a social media competition. My eyes were drawn to this part of the add in that small square box before clicking it, "A year-long supply of free Cathay Cineplexes movie vouchers, an OLYMPUS PEN mini E-PM1 camera each, as well as get featured in a larger-than-life-size advertisement in Cathay Cineleisure Orchard for 3 months!".
It wasn't really this whole portion in the ad but something like that and I immediately clicked it to check it out.

So for your info, to take part we have to form a group of min 2, max 3 pax.
• 14-21 years old
• Owns a Blog, Twitter account, Facebook & YouTube account.

If you asked me, I have met all of the requirements except Facebook but I can simply use my husband's as mine just for this matter. So if any of you're up for this challenge, which you can know more by checking out the page here: awesome info over here
Or better, if you come across the ad at the bottom of my blog, just click it as a big favour for me. *winks*

I am pretty psyched to join this competition despite not really mastering complete knowledge of Cineleisure but I don't mind mugging on it just for this! Haha
So please hurry let me know, in Twitter, Formspring, or if you have my contact, beep me immediately cos I am ready to win!

"GETTING KIDS TO KILL"

2012-02-29T14:32:00.008+08:00

In Cold Blood is a really interesting docu-drama series and I always try not to miss it every Tuesday night on Channel 5.
Last night's topic caught my attention and I dearly sympathise the convicted for foolishly obeying his 9 years older lover to hesitantly murder someone.

"Pub hostess Aniza Essa, 25, had got her young lover, Muhammad Nasir Abdul Aziz, 17, a school dropout, to stab her husband last year.
The woman was jailed for nine years because a psychiatrist found she had suffered a moderate depressive episode which impaired her responsibility for the offence.

The youth is now imprisoned indefinitely." - AsiaOne

It really disappoints me how the teen was too crazy in love, fulfilled for his sexual desires, by that terrible woman, until he wasn't able to think right. I mean come on. We all know teens are prone to be manipulated into doing nonsensical tasks because we are in this stage where majority are effortlessly influenced by the Western culture & older generation. The last part of that episode last night almost made me cry. The part where he gazed at the photo of probably his mother & him when when he was little, the photo torn in half, perhaps due to the separation of his parents because apparently, his dad wasn't in the picture.

I recalled the oh-so-many incidents of slashing cases which happened in the recent years. Those actually happened right at my void deck here in Bt Panjang. Then there's another one which happened at the reservoir nearby. There were those that happened in Pasir Ris also. That point of time most of us were shaking heads. Aku tak paham kenapa manusia fikir dorang ada hak untuk amek nyawa manusia lain.

Ohya anyway, in the episode, the cast were all good looking. Elfaeza ulhaq, the dude who acts in many Suria dramas & the guy who played the teen, I also dk his name. I googled the case after that. My goodness. The huge differences of the people in the re-enacted drama and the real deal, wow. Mainly the woman. I'm not here to judge, which I just did, but I don't understand why the guy would do such sin for that kinda woman. Right now, he's either dead or still under President Pardon because most of the articles in Google mentioned he's under PP but husband said he was already hanged to death by 18. I'm not very sure but whatever it is I hope God have mercy in his punishments. Yes, he did kill someone but he was emotionally tormented by that cruel monster.
Here's the link to their photos: click here

There was also another case which happened 6 years before this involving this guy, Anthony Ler who duped a 15y/o kid into murdering his wife for him. Gosh.

Y NO ALLOWED TO USE UNDERWATER CAM???

2012-02-28T13:36:00.002+08:00

So hi, hello.
The other day, Yan, Ray & I went swimming at Senja-Cashew cc and I was pretty much ecstatic to finally be able to use my waterproof camera because I've had it for 3 years now but I've never gotten the chance to use it but guess what...........
Underwater camera is prohibited.

So I was like........

I mean, come on! Do you know how long I've been meaning to use it? Do you know how many times I brought it to the beach but end up not using it because I know the sea is not a good place to take photos underwater? Do you know that I might end up seeing weird sea creatures or hantu laut in the photos? Do you know that it breaks my heart not being able to use it?? Do you? DO YOU? Well, you don't.
But whatever. I will certainly find the day, the special moment, where I can finally use it. Idk when. But I'm sure the day will come. I'm pretty sure. Other than that, the pool was kinda boring. Well what do you expect? Only one kids pool with a lame playground, only one slide. And a jacuzzi pool next to it which isn't even warm. Then a big lap pool.
So that was it, Rayyan's first time going swimming. =)

Next destination, JURONG WEST SWIMMING COMPLEX. Tak kesah.

IM-PERFECTION

2012-02-27T15:11:00.001+08:00

I am ultimately flawed by physical, undersirable features. But yes, I do love me.
Imperfect - I'm perfect.

DEVOTION & SHIT

2012-02-27T13:34:00.000+08:00

So here I am again, lost in my thoughts. Friends. Do we really need them? A little glitch and things get out of hand. Actions get misinterpreted for bad intentions. People we trust and confide in turns out to be shitting about you behind your back. Those who claimed you're their "bestfriend" but don't even present a slight acknowledgement about your presence like your existence doesn't matter. Then those who just can't make up their mind on who to side when they encounter with the bitchy one and the innocent one. There are those who just can't seem to get along but acts all loyal and chummy and shit when they're together. This is all bullshit. I'd like to put it in general that I'm referring to the females. Yes, girls are so bitchy. Fucking bitchy. I'm not saying I'm not cause I tend to be bitchy too at times but only when people cross my line. So tell me why do some people have to be so unpredictable? Being all gracious and pleasant when their main excuse was none other than sympathy. Bitch, please. No sympathy needed. Oh, come to think of it. There are also those who just slowly fade into AWOL Island for no valid reasons.
I admit, sometimes when I doubt a friendship can work, it includes other reasons that contribute to my excuse for suddenly going astray. I don't leave for no reason.
And just don't get me started on appreciation. We give and we take. The humble way is to give and don't expect anything in return. I've given in way too much but sometimes people don't return me the favour when I actually needed. It's absolutely acceptable when they are actually really busy. But when they act busy or perhaps just unwilling to devote a wee sacrifice for a dear friend, then let me tell you this.. You're doing it wrong.
I deem these types of friendships trashy.

At the end of the day, the only ones I am truly pleased with despite all the nuisance caused, are them. They are the ones. ♥

SUNDAY

2012-02-26T16:59:00.000+08:00

I still love this picture eventhough it's focused wrongly. Haha
Okay, hi Sunday. Hope y'all make the most out of today before weekdays come.
Monday blues, here we go.♥

RANDOM PEOPLE RANDOM DANCING

2012-02-25T17:14:00.001+08:00

It's a Saturday. Hi Saturday. To boost everyone's mood, to add extra adrenaline rushes & to make your life worthwhile, y'all just have to watch these videos.

Warning: Content is full of random merepekism. Laugh if necessary.

GIGINYA SUDAH DUA

2012-02-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

Rayyan has been intensely active for the past couple of weeks. Thus, he needs to get out more often.

So there I was, exceptionally exhausted after making trips here and there to buy food and also for the sake of losing weight by walking long distances and sweating. Rayyan just can't seem to stay at home. He knows when we are at the lift. He would struggle to escape. If he could, he would already ran off to the playground to show how much he wants to stay outdoors. So our main trick is to leave him at the corridor on his walker where he'd just catch the neighbour's girl toddler once he sees her, whom he favours playing with. He would cry and refuse to go home, expecting the toddler to come out and play with him when she's gone home. He would chase after any passers-by. He just enjoys the crowd.

Then I was getting too shagged already so to cheer me up, I made attempts on making him laugh so that I'd laugh as well and to my excitement, he finally showed off his growing teeth. Yes, teeth! Two tooths, that makes teeth. Hahaha do correct me if I'm wrong. So what was I waiting for? I rushed to my room, grabbed my dslr and snapped away his laughs and smiles, proudly showing off his adorable growing teeth. I felt a great ounce of achievement. Little things that excite me. (':

VLOG 6

2012-02-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

Yet again, I passed the idea of making a makeup tutorial. I'm just rather lazy. So here's a vlog for yall. ;-)
Fyi, new year vlog has been updated in this post >>>> http://deepayong.blogspot.com/2012/01/happy-2012.html
View if you will ♥

BABY HAS A TOOTHY

2012-02-21T12:48:00.027+08:00

If you can spot it, you're amazing

One of the most exciting things a parent could experience is of their baby's first tooth!
Yep, you guessed it. Ayyan has a growing tooth already! Keyword: growing.

The tooth isn't full grown yet if y'all ask me but it's still very thrilling. Husband discovered it last Saturday night and I finally grabbed a snapshot of the tooth, after many failed attempts, to share with you guys. If I'm not mistaken there's also a tiny 2nd tooth growing next to it but I'm not pretty sure if it is cos husband don't see it. -_- But I think it is. It might be the 2nd tooth. Hehe
I bet once a tooth or two has fully grown, Ayyan would look much more adorable when he smiles or laughs. ;')

Sigh..... makin besar la anak ibu. I love you.

SANDTOSA

2012-02-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

Sunday is family day so as you might have guessed I had a picnic at Sentosa Island ;) I prefer calling it Pulau Aman. Hahaha no just kidding

So my husband actually doesn't know how to give me surprises but apart from my birthday surprise, he gave me an even bigger surprise yesterday when his friends suddenly appeared out of nowhere to join us. In my mind I was like, right....... Husband invited his friends along but he didn't tell me beforehand and thus, he didn't even present me with a "SURPRISEEEEE". Lol k back to the story.

It was pretty exhausting like the worst part was the dehydration cos the weather was scorching hot. It was Rayyan's first time dipping in the sea.. I guess he quite enjoyed it after awhile. He was afraid at first. Perhaps the water was a little cold or he was just freaked out, idk. But then he started splashing like how he usually does during his bath time then he kept sucking my salty wet shoulder while I carried him in the water. Hahaha he must've liked the saltiness. Husband & his friends were chattering away by the side of the beach, in the water of course, leaving me alone like #foreveralone but I'm cool with it. I appreciate the time I had with myself foolishly trying to walk to the middle but failed cos the bottom was all gooey and slushy, filled with seaweed and I kept sinking in like it was quicksand. Haha technically it was quicksand because apparently, it's sand.

We need to have more of these kinda outings. Perhaps uss next? Yeah I'd definitely want that.

(Caution: The photos you're about to see are clear shots of me with naked face & views of my skinny-fat* body. Be prepared to witness my flaws.)

*skinny-fat: Not skinny, not fat. Usually referred to as mampat in malay. (But fyi I hate the word mampat. So skinny-fat it is.)

RETARDATION

2012-02-17T23:55:00.003+08:00

Times like this I get to let out a little bit more of myself... With the girls. :)
Still contemplating on whether I should post our random dancing videos I swear we look very retarded in the vids but.... who cares??¯\(°_°)/¯

Hahaha but seriously, amusing & entertaining level: Just for laughs *giggles*
Let me think about it......

THURSDAY EVENING

2012-02-16T23:34:00.005+08:00

Hi today I had a great evening with my family.

We had actually planned to just have dinner at home team ns poolside cafe which is the place we frequently enjoy fish n chips & chicken chop cos they have the best ones there but afterwards we decided to join my dad deal with his customers at the east and north then we headed to cwp for supper at Swensen's. Okay actually I suggested going to cwp cos we were already at Woodlands and I wanted to eat marble slab, the usual tub of pint of rocher+cotton candy with nestle crunch & hershey syrup and yessss as I expected, my family loved the combination. We didn't had enough of the ice cream so we ended up having ice cream for supper at Swensen's. Hehe!

This is Rayyan getting all excited for the ice cream and perhaps also because the other table just sang "Happy Birthday" then maybe he thought it was his birthday lol idk babies and their random excitements hehe

COOLIO

2012-02-15T14:11:00.001+08:00

Makes me wanna learn how to dubstep but...... hehehe

ITS VDAY

2012-02-14T13:56:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone it's Valentine's day but hey, I am a muslim therefore I am not celebrating it.
(lol padahal past years aku celebrate jugak)

It's so contradicting how some people despise those who commemorate vday and I'm referring to those Muslims. On the contrary, even if you don't celebrate vday to show you don't acknowledge the whatever whatever story behind vday which I suggest yall google it if you don't know it yet, I bet your life either includes drinking, clubbing, making out or better yet, having sex. So why make it a fuss? And easy said, yall touching opposite gender is already haram and I don't mean the m18 touching but like, sentuh sahaja dah haram okay? Paham? But yes, valentine's day haram untuk ugama islam menyambut so kalau boleh tak payah sambut nanti menambahkan dosa. That's what some people are tryna portray but they meant it in an offensive way to some that it triggers some anger but no biggie, I am not at all offended. I am on the fence.

So a little show and tell to excite this post.
Today I spent my day with myself and my son. Yes, he's my valentine. He is so sweet his smile melts me away... The power of his smile.
I recalled the past years' Valentines day with husband.
In 2009, our very first vday together we celebrated by going to town with some friends and Yan bought me a rose and tiramisu and starbucks hehehe! Then when he sent me home, he surprised me with something I have been yearning for years - Paris Hilton Heiress perfume and some chocolates awww
He was really sweet back then. He gave me those as my birthday present as well.
In 2010, we fought on the eve of vday and we almost broke up but then we made up and I gave him chocolates with the initials DEE ❤ YAN and we met in the morning before going to school for me to give him those. Hahaha I can't recall what he gave me or if he did give me anything so yeah..
Last year, 2011, I guess we gave vday a miss as far as I can remember cos on my bday he was in camp and I suppose he was in camp too on vday.

Right now husband's in the jungle somewhere nearby, in Bt Batok, and I wish him the best for survival this entire week in the jungle and I love you tak kira Valentine's day atau tidak ilysm I love you sampai mati. I know you're not the romantic kind who gives surprises and everything but every little attempt you made on doing so, are the most heartwarming events ever! I got the hang of it. I don't demand for presents. But the only thing I ask for every single day of our lives as husband and wife, is for your love for me to stay and never fade or better yet love me more by the second. I want you to be sweet in the sense of pampering me not with gifts, but with casual hugs and kisses and random dates, just you and I.. Just that. :)

(And the following photos are for decoration purposes, hehe)

MY LOVE YR LOVE

2012-02-13T02:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH

2012-02-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

To everyone who made it, thank you so much for the celebration. Especially to my dearest husband.
It was a waste that none of my girlfriends could make it well I am sure I was fully contented just by husband by my side. There was a mini conflict (not involving me) plus a raid and I was one of the lucky bitches who got screened. "YAYYY". Haha I heard some ladies bitching about how I look so decent and yet boleh kene screen and I was like whatever.

Overall, thank you once again to those who made it happen.

Thank you, sayang ♥

HI I'M 19 TODAY

2012-02-10T12:42:00.029+08:00

Hello happy birthday to me ;-)

Yesternight I had an advanced birthday celebration which my parents treated me to dinner at Swensen's and I was actually the one who suggested it hahaha
So I had fish n chips & topless 5 ice cream. Ok la quality time with my mum and dad and naughty Ayyan. Husband couldn't be there with me at midnight cos he's in camp but well, he wished me and that's all that matters. Him remembering. Haha!
Then after that my cousin Phyfee came over to hand me my birthday present then we chilled and she resulted in sleeping over. Hehe!
Thank you adik Sharhan for the big bag of Garrett caramel popcorn which I am totally unsure how I'll be able to finish.
And also, thank you to everyone who wished me in twitter yall are so sweet and husband's also very sweet. The birthday wish he posted for me on facebook was so touching I almost shed tears of amazement, chey amazement eh but really. Can't wait for tonight. Probably heading to dblo.

Let's partyyyyy

OPEN UP A LIL BIT MORE

2012-02-10T12:30:00.000+08:00

EVE OF MOI'S BDAY

2012-02-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

So what have I got to say? Well, this week has indeed been a little hectic. Though I can't clearly recall what made up the thought of having sucha busy and tiring week.

Highlights of the week:

1) First of all, it's my birth week!! *jumps with joy*
2) Tuesday, 7th Feb Rayyan turned 7 months!
3) Wednesday, 8th Feb my freaking line got terminated AGAIN thanks to Starhub which I will gladly do a complaint post very soon depending on my schedule and interest. I would just love to humiliate Starhub once and for all. I cannot tolerate all these nonsense anymore.
4) Friday, 10th Feb I'm turning 19 and I'm lacking excitement due to:
- cockup plans
- cashless
- exhaustion
AND also, a month to an anniversary of our marriage :'-) Awesome! ♥
5) TODAY, I am 18 years and 364 days old technically. Can't wait to see who actually cares and remembers my special day. Idk I just get the thrill when it comes to this yaknow like how I remember people's birthdays but they don't remember mine kinda thing yea I'm about to see...

So what am I doing tomorrow? Plans were hitting dblo and all but..... idk if it will happen by impromptu instead. If not, we might be suntanning at Sentosa (but everyone knows I'm too tanned to tan already) this Saturday. Just maybe. Okay lah I don't wanna put my expectations and hopes up high in case things turn out the opposite.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone! ☺

7 MONTHS

2012-02-07T16:23:00.066+08:00

Happy 7 months, my cheeky baby. You have a long way to go. Mudah-mudahan jadi anak yang soleh. Insya'allah.

So what is the progression? Hehe semakin notti adela.
Lately, he's become demanding and hyper-active. Like, if he could stand on his own two feet without any support he'd be running everywhere! He can sit already. And have been crawling. He loves to stand and walk with assistance. He is overly attracted to phones or remote controls. He sucks everything and everywhere. He loves to go out often. He baby talks alot and sometimes he almost pronouces "ibu" and I would just melt. Okay the list goes on and on but the only thing lacking is his hair. Hahaha! His hair decides to take a longer time to develop. And....... to make this post interesting you shall witness a few random, sometimes awkward, positions of him sleeping. *giggles*

And the rest just to commemorate his special day ☺

Love you my sunshine ☼

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WATEE

2012-01-26T17:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th birthday, Watee baby ♥
Hope you're blessed with happiness all year round and please be a good wife and mummy. I enjoyed myself with the rest at dblo last night. Hope you had fun cos it was awesome! My birthday, again? Nak? Haha

I guess a picture speaks a thousand words. So here we go.

p.s These including the rest of the unposted photos, I swear, macam gambar-gambar cerita Hangover. Lol

FRIGGIN' EARGASM

2012-01-24T01:01:00.004+08:00

GETTIN A LIL WASTED

2012-01-23T00:36:00.027+08:00

Saturday.
I enjoyed the heavy rain. Cats & dogs. Just so cooling. Too bad I didn't get to sleep in. We decided to take a breather after quite some time.

Bugis street first just to waste some time then dinner at ljs and to fulfill our cravings, Yan and I decided to indulge in Marble Slab ice cream. Many flavours were out so I chose chocolate swiss and dbl choc something with the usual mix-ins, nutella + snickers. Heavenly, as always. Pint of it. Then we headed to town to meet Watee & Naz. They suggested drinking so okay... let's go Clarke Quay. It's been awhile since I last consumed alcohol. So okay la just to warm up our bodies in the chilly weather. I enjoyed the scenery. It was pretty relaxing. Quite boring. A lil. Then around 2 we decided to cab home. That's about it, a simple Saturday. And we didn't even finish the Glen's Vodka. Haha

ART OF GOOGLE

2012-01-18T15:53:00.004+08:00

So if you have caught the act of fool and silly in twitter back then in November, probably my tweethearts would know what went on... You guys would probably remember twitter account Isapbuah who actually tried to condemn me.

What happened?
So I tweeted about friends and this Isapbuah decided to be a stalker and observed my tweets until SHE decided to terasa with my tweets and then found fault with me. In the first place, I don't even know Isapbuah exists and then she said I'm the stalker? Contradicting enough, they said I terasa? Eh come on I tweeted about the people who liked my husband's status insulting me in facebook and there were a few people so why did you have to terasa? But well, admitting to it yes it was for a few girls and korang dah kenapa stalk tweets aku sampai buat a general twitter account just to check on what I've been tweeting? And then tiba-tiba call aku tah mana dapat number (which I have guessed who were behind it) then never wanting to admit who you were and still have the cheek to call and insult me through the phone like some kids who don't have better things to do. And this particular person whom I recon your voice, I'm not stupid dear. I know who you are lah tkya nak suara jantan kat phone. I hung up after wasting enough time entertaining their immaturity then they tweeted me asking to meet if tak puas hati. Aku tak kenal kau, aku nak jumpa kau buat apa?

So then I saved the number who pranked call me. And as I frequent whatsapp, I observed the person's status. I saved the number as Isapbuah Stalker Rabak. And guess what I found out one day. The fool decided to post her boyfriend's name as her status, and how did I know? Google did the dirty job for me.

Spot it

Google it

Found it

Hi Netasher! (Spot the name under her links *hint*)

And sepandai kepala otak aku, memang aku dah agak confirm kau kene mengene dengan dorang. I would have exposed your friend's similar general account but I choose not to because the number is yours. And I do know those other two, whom I shall refer to as SH and SY, were behind this pasal aku tahu korang nya perangai keanak-anakan tapi nak buat macamane kan dah sah suka terasa sikit-sikit nak terasa pastu stalk tweets orang pastu carik pasal dengan orang pasal bende merepek. And okay lah sebaik hati aku taknak expose the main person, I guess I will unintentionally expose her with this proof.

Yes, you. You want to find me cos I exposed you? Well think for yourself ah. Kau ape hal? First si isapbuah call carik pasal dgn aku pastu suruh aku private twitter account aku kalau tknk korang stalk, aku private. Pastu masih nak stalk jugak? Haha cute la korang. Subscribe sekali la twitter aku jadi korang receive every tweets yang aku tweet, k?
I am sorry for doing this but you deserve it, Net. I never did anything to you, at all. Never. I don't even know you. But you decided to do this shit to me. For them. Grats to you, your name and your general account twitter is exposed. Nak letak number kau sekali tak? K tk payah lah.

p/s It is very unfortunate that I didn't screenshot the tweets & mentions by Isapbuah. Seriously unfortunate.

WELCOME TO OUR FAMILY

2012-01-15T15:24:00.036+08:00

As a dutiful replacement, my parents decided to own another kitty. And we decided to call it Garfield due to its full resemblance, almost.

So the other day I followed mum and dad to the pet shop at Pasir Ris to collect Garfield. He was 4 months plus then. And he was the most fluffy among all the other Persian cats his age there. Heard that they could only import cats after 2 months so yeap, they are all still baby kitties. So anyway, today is his 5 months birthday! I swear he is so irresistible. His fur is damn soft like carpet. And he loves to be carried like a baby. Damn cute la, seriously.

Anyway, Rooney will always be in our hearts. xx

TWO MONTHS TO A YEAR

2012-01-10T16:01:00.019+08:00

As a thoughtful commemoration, today our relationship stands strong for already 3 years and 3 months. Woop woop~

And also, in two months we'll be reaching a year wedding anni and it means alot to me cos we've been through too much horror, yes horror, throughout this one whole year of marriage. Not intending to make it sound like this marriage sucks, but based on everyone's knowledge, life has ups and downs. And this probably have had the most downs so far. And in a month I'm turning 19! Haha okay baru 19 je okay wait it means something also. Cos after 19, there's no more teen years. Omg~~~ So now yall know why every 10th is special to me, yes?

OFFICIALLY DISCHARGED

2012-01-09T15:39:00.032+08:00

Hi so today I had my follow-up check up on the operation last month and doctor has officially discharged me. Hahaha k so actually I thought I was already discharged. zzz

So yeap, surprisingly the doctor didn't do any vaginal check for infections whatsoever so I'm saved! Have always feared vaginal checks. Brr! Anyway recently I've been rather close with an old buddy, whom we had been "sisters" in secondary school. Haha! And we happened to share the same fate of being a young mum at the same time so yeap, she accompanied me and we've been hanging out quite often.
These days, or perhaps in life, friends are so hard to trust. And majority came and left in my life. People I put trust and faith in, betrayed me. What can I say? I'm a nobody anyway. So I personally feel that people of the same perception as me, preferably young mothers themselves, could understand me better and would make better friends. (Excluding that one particular young mum yang macam paham korang pandai-pandai teka)
So then in the evening we had dinner at BB Central with our husbands and chilled somewhere near before heading home.

On a lighter note, I hope the friends I have now won't betray me like those who did. I have totally had enough of two-faced people and being too nice to everyone that my head becomes a nice mat for people to step on.
Trust nobody but be nice and friendly. My impromptu motto. Hahaha

GONNA MARRY THE NIGHT

2012-01-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

It's a beautiful evening. 21 minutes past midnight.

To be honest, I haven't really gotten over the fact that Rooney has departed. *sobs* Aku hanya mampu redha... Anyway I was too consumed by the agony of the loss of Rooney that I forgot to share about yesterday's wedding invitation. So yes, with the short sleep we had gotten we still managed to attend Yan's campmate's wedding at Haig Road. We missed the arrival of the newly-weds but we did got to meet them when they've changed to their 2nd outfit, itu pun dorang dah potong kek and salam-salam untuk balik. Zzz.. We waited hours slacking at one part of the void deck for them and ended up meeting them only for a glance. Well most of all... Selamat Pengantin Baru Min & wife :)

Besides that, Yan's friends were so intrigued by the presence of Ray. Hahaha they were all so eager taking turns to carry him and take pictures. Ray, afterall, likes the attention and chaos. He just loves being tend to.

Grabbed this pic from yan's friend hehe

I like this pic cos Ray looks so handsome here hehehe

Idky his friends damn sweet one. Dorang yang offer nak amekkan gambar kita trio. Upon us reaching. Haha

REST IN PEACE

2012-01-01T21:28:00.001+08:00

Today marks the day of a new year... And the departure of our dearly beloved family cat, Rooney.

Sigh... How I wish I was there throughout his last breaths. Only my family got the chance to witness him dying. And as how mum had described to me, his 'nazak' seemed suffering. Idky it would be since he's a cat free of sins unlike humans but it's just so devastating that he's forever gone. I guess it truly is already time for him to leave us. 11 cat years young equals to 61 human years old. He's already an old kitty. He was the first we ever owned. The first we ever loved and pampered. Then the other cats joined in and he didn't like it. He hated new cats, especially kittens. And after about 5 years we had to give away every other kitty except him. Cause he's special. He got to experience a baby in the house. And it gives me giggles thinking how he'd runaway from Ray everytime we bring them together. He's so afraid, or perhaps shy. And also, how he loved chewing on plastic flowers and leaves off of fake plants on table tops. Chilling in the toilet was his hobby. I guess he enjoyed the cool ground and he'd catch water droplets from taps. I guess he got a thrill in doing so. It is rather silly and gets me laughing all the way but sigh.... He was awesome. Oh and not forgetting, how I'd scare him silly by making smooching sounds and the way he reacted, was just epic. And it kills me knowing how he left so early when I have always prayed for his health and lengthy life.

Rooney. I'm sorry Ray and I weren't there to say goodbye. It really breaks my heart and I have yet to breakdown and cry on this matter. Still holding back the tears.. Trying to stay strong. A start of the new year expecting surrounding happiness and you just have to go. But it's okay. You have been a great cat and we love you countless.. Eventhough you're just a local breed, you're the cutest ever!
As I heave a heavy sigh, I pray Al-fatihah for you. Rest in peace ♥

BOUND TO YOU

2012-01-01T03:24:00.000+08:00

I wanna sing this. As beautifully as Christina Aguilera.

HAPPY 2012

2012-01-01T02:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!
Okay as promised, I've made a vlog. But... youtube isn't co-operating so it shall be delayed.
(Vlog updated @ end of post on: 22/02/2012, 11:25PM)

Lemme share a brief story on what I did last night.

So I thought I was gonna be super deprived for staying all the way at home but thankfully I decided to join my family for dinner at Cineleisure's Es Teler 77 last minute. It was pree awkward cause every other teenager, majority, were with friends while I was with my family but well... I love my family, what can I say. Mum then bought me Famous Amos cookies as a New year's gift then we walked around town just to witness the bizarre lights and street acts. There was also a countdown celebration party outside Ngee Ann City, free admission and it was tempting me with their club music blasting and everything. So then before 11 my parents sent me home and I finished settling with Ray right on time to watch the countdown on channel 5 and see the fireworks. Sigh.. 8 minutes of fireworks on tv wasn't very exciting. I barely watched it. I didn't feel a thing when it struck midnight, like the atmosphere and vibe aren't there. Oh well, pity husband since he's busy guarding his camp..

Town on New year's eve

Happy to be going out on nye :)

Ayyan nak nasik goreng

Twenty-twelve!

What happened to twitter minutes after midnight

Face of 2012 *smiles*

I'M SO LONELY BROKEN ANGEL

2011-12-31T16:31:00.000+08:00

JUST A DREAM

2011-12-31T16:23:00.000+08:00

This is a story about two very different people, only surviving cause they are apart. ♥

COUNTING CROWS

2011-12-30T19:53:00.001+08:00

So I bet lotsa you guys are hyped for tmr's evening.. It is afterall the countdown to 2012.
YA ALLAH LAJUNYA MASA BERLALU!!

Hmmm... I've been thinking to myself. I kept on reminiscing these days and it has taught me one thing. Learn to let go and embrace the beauty of life. Why am I being so sentimental right now? Well the year's ending so as part of my resolutions I am also including a happy-go-lucky package. Yes, I need the whole package of a positive attitude. Realising how much I've poured tears back then due to heartbreaks and lies, and also the terrible rocky road I'm driving on, I hereby demand myself to be free from anger, sadness or stress. It is most definitely one of the toughest things to do but I can try. I think a happy girl makes a beautiful woman. Wouldn't you all like it when you're facing a problematic issue and you only just smile and go with the flow.. Not caring less about being disappointed with it. Okay it is rather psychotic to not show the negative expressions but what I'm tryna say is to be more happy and don't let things easily overwhelm my thoughts with disagreement. I am sick and tired of stress as I know it is one of the reasons why my 2nd baby didn't live. I am also putting aside thoughts of lunatics tryna sink my love boat in any way cause I know one of the parcels in marriage is of course, people who tryna ruin it.

So anyway, most of you are probably heading to parties and getting wasted tomorrow. Me? Maybe I'll be staying home and watching the countdown on live telecast instead or if I'm allowed, perhaps go out with a girlfriend of mine along with our children. The thought of major crowds and public transport disgust me. Hahaha! Okay I have planned if I'm staying home tmr I'll be making a New Year vlog post so tune in.. *winks*

WHAT'S HAPPENING?

2011-12-29T21:48:00.002+08:00

This week is the last week of the year... 2012 is coming. Are yall prepared for it? I mean, come on. I bet everyone has had alot of losses this year, mainly friends.

Hmm... 2011 has been a rather momentous year for me since I've learnt alot. Yeah, not like I haven't learnt new things in every other year but this year's different. Much different. The challenges and obstacles are rare and the only thing I'd wish for 2012 is for the new year to be more lenient to me. I need a break. Apart from the life-changing hurdles I've overcome mostly in family-wise issues, there comes friendship issues. We can never run away from friends-related problems cause especially for us girls, we always end up with unreasonable and sometimes, nonsensical conflicts among each other. I conclude that I've lost some friends but I don't find it that degrading since I can live without friends. It is true that I am quite deprived of close girlfriends but none can seem to stay close to me for long. No matter how nice or cautious I've been, taking in consideration of their feelings and such. So for 2012, I hope to meet new girls to befriend with. Sincere and honest ones, to be exact. It may not be new people I've just met, but perhaps people I've met but didn't thought would be there for me at times of need. Yes, eventhough I'm a family girl now it doesn't mean that I'm mentally old that I don't need friends to hangout with once in awhile. Husband's busy most of the time so I do need companions to fill my days with smiles and laughter, along with the joy of a growing son. Ray is gonna reach a year young next year so I'm looking forward to see my angel walk and maybe talk a little. *giggles*

Oh and another one. I am determined to lose weight and obviously not by illegal and unhealthy means but the natural ways which are jogging, going to the gym and going on a crash diet, something like that.

With that, I have just completed one-third of my new year's resolutions without me realizing.

XMAS

2011-12-26T21:12:00.011+08:00

So what I did on Christmas was.......

Hmm k it was a pree last minute plan. Impromptu. Drizzling, as usual. I was craving for Marble Slab ice cream so the nearest is obviously at Causeway Point and we decided to head there - Yan, Ray and I.
Fulfilling our craving for nutella mixed ice cream was to no avail cos nutella was unavailable in their outlet. But the new combo we tried was spectacular! A pint of rocher + cotton candy flavours with mix-ins of nestle crunch and hershey syrup.... Splendid!
Then husband wanted some cookies so we bought Famous Amos. And I enjoyed experiencing the new look of cwp eventhough I know it has been quite long already since they've renovated. I kinda miss the whole vintage look of cwp yaknow..... The one we used to go when we were kids. But the new look is awesome since it's very modern and I can't even recognize the mall anymore! With new outlets like Uniqlo and err...others it is definitely a better-looking mall, much better than Bpp.

Okay that's all for my xmas experience.. It's nice giving a review of a new mall hahaha

XMAS COMING

2011-12-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

I don't have any plans for Christmas!! :(

Okay macam lah kita ni celebrate xmas but nah.. Just commemorating the public occasion, being at town and enjoying the lightings and xmas trees with Yan and Ayyan. Hmm.. So what are you guys doing this weekend?

Have fun!

HONEY PIES

2011-12-21T17:25:00.005+08:00

It's quite happening when you face a competition.. Be it at school, work, or in a contest.

Hi omg it's 21st December, can you believe it? This Sunday is Christmas so I bet there are crazy sales going on at town which I guess I'll have to give a miss. So as a Christmas wish, not that I celebrate it or anything, I'd like to say.... What I want for Christmas is.........to win Ray $50 voucher to buy him cute sandals! Hahaha okay so if you guys wanna know why I want Ray to win in the iStylo.Kidz Stylo Milo Competition, it's because I've been eyeing on these few awesome adorable sandals which I would love to see one pair fitting Ray's cute lil feet! Want to see how cute they are?? Here.

And what do you think of this super adorable Vans shoes??

Sigh... The price kills me inside. It's just so expensive but it would be great to own one for Ray since his daddy has a similar pair! The adult size of course. But anyways, I'm really glad with the number of "likes" Ray has gotten so far. All you supporters are the best! But thinking about it.. It won't really matter if he wins or not. If he does, syukur alhamdulillah. If not, well atleast we tried. And if you all don't notice, I enjoy participating in these kinda contests. Hahaha! Participated twice and the first one was MDIS's contest which I won 3rd and the 2nd one is the Chic Mag shit which Idk what happened I think cmi also la. Well if we don't try, we die. Okay that's such a lame quote but yeap that's about it. *winks*

BRING IT ON

2011-12-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

Cute tak, cute tak? Kalau cute, click the photo and "like" please. Hehehe :)
Rayyan will gladly appreciate your support. Thank you~ ♥

FOLLOW UP

2011-12-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone :) December is coming to an end. Are you prepared for 2012?

Hmm.. Okay so I have nothing very interesting to blog about.. Except that I have yet to post about the jemputan at jb that time and recently, I attended another wedding and I'm just waiting for the photos! So just a lil congratulations over here to my bro for promoting to Sec 5 but... We are all encouraging him to take up higher nitec course since it's gonna be a faster route.
Anyway for a brief on 2012, I have a few events lined up.

February
•USS with the cousins(in-laws) on the 4th. It's gonna be awesome since I can ride the roller coasters! Fuckyeah
•I'm turning 19 on the 10th!!

March
•1st wedding anniversary on the 10th!

July
•Rayyan's first birthday on the 7th ☺

Okay so I'm hoping I'll be able to get my driver's license by end of 2012. And if husband permits, I'm gonna take up a dip course. Anyway speaking of which, I was fantasizing the other day about wanting to kahwin again. No, not nikah. Kahwin. Yes, I'd like to relive the moments of bersanding. I was thinking perhaps by 30 when I've some extra cash I'd definitely celebrate my wedding anniversary the grand way. Naik pelamin, kompang, perhaps at a hotel or something. Hahaha well why not? We will see..

Here's something for you guys. See if you could catch a particular word he actually mentioned in this video :)

OPERATION ABORT

2011-12-17T16:51:00.060+08:00

The thought and wonder of what happened in the operation theatre still lingers in my mind. After two jabs of anesthesia into my iv and roughly about 3-4 breaths of the gas, I was fully unconscious and unaware of what happened throughout the entire procedure. I awoke an hour after my op, which was 11pm. I asked the doctor if I could see my baby. I mean come on what do I expect of a 13mm fetus? The doctor only said there's "no baby" but only blood clot or something like that. Hmm...

So hi everyone. If you don't already know, I had a missed miscarriage so I had to undergo an abortion to clear my uterus before further complications. It was a rather devastating occurrence but I understand why it has to be this way. I was admitted on 15 dec, the day of my check up. I had an u/s appointment and yet again, there was no heartbeat present and the baby did not grow. And to correct my statement, I was 7 weeks plus last week and still was. I was very afraid for the op. I mean, who wouldn't be? Okay perhaps those who willingly go for abortion. But not me. I am forever against it. What was I to do? Keep a non-living baby? Guess not.

No heartbeat.

That's the baby.

This hurts a hell lot cos it's at the wrist! :(

I presume that Ray is all mine now. I can shower him with all my love and care. I know his lil sibling is waiting for me in Heaven. You are forever in my heart, baby.

And just as my baby left me, Ray starts to show interest in his foot. Yes, either sucking or biting his foot thumb. Alala tayang, later you get adik okay. Not now. Mummy tak cukup kuat la.... :(
On the brighter side, Ray has become more brilliant now. He walks more and stands often on his walker, plays peek-a-boo, mumbles alot and is just super active! I am very happy to have such an adorable son and I am proud of it. Really.

My two precious boys♥

BABY YOU CAN DO IT

2011-12-07T16:16:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

It's certainly been awhile. Recently came back from Johor for a wedding ceremony which we stayed for 3d2n. Will gladly update on that later on. So I just had to go for an emergency check up at kkh since I've been having lower abdominal cramps and spotting. It just scares me and adding on to that, I keep insisting on carrying Ray and taking care of him more when I shouldn't cos my womb has somehow lowered. Which is bad. But what is a mother to do, right. So on Monday, husband brought me for a walk-in checkup which the appointment was supposed to be next week. I kinda got the shock of my life.
Well what's new? I had a transvaginal ultrasound which was a first time for me. Haha! Shy, obviously. Although a woman doctor did it. And then..........

K based on my LMP, I should be 12 weeks but it only measured for 6 weeks plus. What stopped my heart for a second was that they couldn't detect a fetal heartbeat. The doctor tried to assure me to be as optimistic as possible but with the possibility of either I miscalculated the dates and I may have ovulated later, or that baby might probably stop growing and there's a chance of miscarriage. Well the only thing I could do now is pray. Kalau memang bukan rezeki, redha je lah. Tetap bersyukur jugak kerana Allah lebih mengetahui kemampuan kita untuk menanggung dua anak sekarang. So my next check up next week would determine if the baby lives. And if I'm gonna be a mother of 2 soon. Well, insya'allah. Whatever will be, will be. If there's still no heartbeat then I guess baby no. 2 will remain as a memory in my heart. And I would probably meet him/her in Heaven. Perhaps? Hehe well anyway, the doctor forgot to gave me a copy of the u/s which I could see how tiny the fetus was. And the shape of it. So.. that's about it :3

Oh anyway, Ray turns 5 months today!! ~

THE OTHER DAY

2011-11-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody! It's been a rainy season. Well I guess an alternate to snow since we don't have winter here :3 So I have missed out on some updates. I shall share them with you today.

The other day I think like, a week back I decided it's finally time to shave it off. Yes! Shave Ray's hair off since it's not doing any good progress. So my parents and I brought him to shave since husband's in camp. And it was very amazing that Ray did not even make a the slightest noise of fuss or anything. He plainly enjoyed it! Usually he always do the tahlil yaknow move his head right and left like berzikir whenever he's irritated but this time his head kept still. Hahaha good job, sweetie.

So then that night we headed to newton for a supreme feast on seafood which I haven't had for ages. Hmm as usual. Baby squid, chilli crab, sting ray, tom yam soup, cockles, some veges, sweet chicken.... Mmmm thinking of it makes me crave for more. Of course I ate in moderation to avoid puking everything out after that. Yep, I've learnt to eat in smaller portions cos right now baby doesn't like to eat much. Haha. I'll always end up puking.

Then since it got late and it was pouring, we decided to head to IMM since its closer instead of town. Window shopping then we decided to indulge in Swensen's ice cream for dessert. Heavy dessert! Two giant earthquakes and I chose the flavours! Yummmm~ Heavenly.

So that was it. My cravings for the day were fulfilled =)

HAAGEN DAZS JOURNEY OF INDULGENCE

2011-11-26T23:13:00.030+08:00

So Christmas is around the corner!! ~ ~ ~

Thanks to Rynaque for the wonderful opportunity! I guess I'll have to say, luck has been on my side and my ice cream craving has been fulfilled. But not enough, in fact. So basically, I participated in @rynaque's twitter contest to fill out the incomplete sentence on Haagen Dazs and thanks to that, I won myself invites for the journey! Of course, husband was my date for the Thursday night. (:

We glammed up for that cold night and we were actually late. It's been raining cats and dogs lately, so it caused us the delay. So luckily I got to change my slot to the later one. Which was at 9pm. And the experience..... interesting! Of course one of the main things we realised was that we were the only malays! Haha

So what was the journey all about? Hmm.... A ride on an open top bus while being served haagen dazs ice cream, some chocolates and champagne. It was chilly! Cos it was drizzling throughout the ride so we were kinda drenched abit. Haha but it was joyful! Husband and I loooove the cookies and chocolate flavour. It's just the best. I tasted abit of champagne since I'm preggy but I'd like to try of course. Ugh.... just like beer. As we rode along the Orchard road with the christmas lightings and decorations, it was worthwhile. Despite the drizzle. I was shivering. Really. Oh yeah there was one part where the host asked us how long we have been dating, and I answered halfway saying "3 years......" and before I could say "and we're married" the host went on about we could get engaged soon and stuff... -.- hahaha well I guess people won't believe that we're married anyway.

So after that half an hour journey, we headed to chill by the esplanade bay. Just a lil camwhoring and just be enraptured by the tantalizing scenery of our city. Then the song "this city" played in my mind. Haha yesss "This city. Is my city. And I loooove it, yeah I loooove it"

Well then we headed home and called it a day. ^^

FRIENDSHIP

2011-11-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

So I bet every teenage girl has issues in friendship. Lately I've been saying how it's hard to trust people and how I don't wish to get too attached to friends. With that, I'd like to share with you about the people I truly care about.. No matter how they seem to not be there for me most of the time. I still love them.

First of all, it's obviously my one and only bestfriend, Ummairah Jamal. Yes, her. It's funny how we met in tumblr then we.... err remind me again how we exchanged numbers? If I'm not wrong, from tumblr we exchanged numbers. And then we started texting and she was kinda a great sms friend. Hahaha and finally we met one day outside 313. I will never get bored of telling you how we first met cause it's so sweet. Then we went karaoke once w aynn and yanna and then we went for a holiday at Bintan with my family. She started to come over to my place w myra on a random basis when I was pregnant cos she knows it will be a trouble for me to travel around. Even now, she does come over at times. But what I'm upset about is that I couldn't be there for her all the time. Yeah I get it. I'm a housewife. I'm not the typical teen girl whose life is all about enjoyment. She apparently have other girlfriends who she could party with every other nights, to go swimming with, to drink and get drunk with... And everything else most girls usually do. Which I used to do. And she's now much closer to Fatyn and of course, I am jealous. But I guess I can't do anything about it since I'm never there for her. So yeap, overall I'm still glad she's still by my side although not literally by my side but mentally and emotionally. Although she always seems busy with her friends, it's okay. I guess it's meant to be... :) I still love her to the max.

Then comes another young mummy... Nurul Afidah. We never go out together before. Cause good enough, we both have restricting hubbies who control us. Haha so we both understand each other. We share stories. We don't bitch unnecessarily, that's the truth. But I personally feel like we know each other deeply. We met only...... twice. Hahah! But I guess somehow it's a good thing since it prevents our friendship from drifting apart. I mean, in the sense that we don't get too attached for going out together all the time like some people, then once we don't go out together we assume the other party hates us. Get it? I do wish we could hang out often. Probably not now... Probably not even later. Even if we have to stay as cyber friends, it'd still be fine. I just feel that she's there for me at times. And that's all that matters.

Yep, so it's just the two of them who I truly care about. No one else. Friendship and bestfriends doesn't mean we go out often together or we take zillions of photos together then you can conclude we are bestfriends. No. And friendship does not mean getting jealous over the littlest things and wanting to make friends with every of my friend. No. I don't favour those kind of friendship. I want a decent, simple yet generous one. And also, friendship doesn't mean having to mix with those "famous" group of people and boasting about it. No. You do know I have no fame, so don't bother talking to me if you expect to be popular or.. or be known by other people through me cos I'm not miss popular. Not at all.

CATCHING UP

2011-11-17T15:26:00.001+08:00

I had some free time today so for your reading pleasure, I've updated with hari raya haji and hospital posts =)
They'll be on the earlier posts since I scheduled them at particular dates.

Anyway it seems that I totally forgot to announce that Ray has turned 4 months last Monday and I'm happy for him! He's been sucha brilliant child despite being only 4 months. And of course as a mother I am proud of him. The 8th, my lil sister turned 8yo unfortunately I couldn't celebrate her birthday with the family since I'm over at the in-laws'. On the 10th, which was the first day of Ray in hospital was Yan and I's 8 months of marriage. Eventhough it's only 8 months, we've been through tsunamis and hurricanes. Wow! How strong we are to still overcome those challenges. God willing, we will last till the end. It is afterall said to be that teen marriages are bound to face lotsa risks and major issues. But let's prove we can make it. Insya'allah.

I've changed my blog layout, as you've seen. Hehe it's not an original but well thanks to the hot biggity blog webpage I'm able to customize to my expectation. I've also decided not to link anyone but I do take note of certain blog urls for my own reading contentment. One thing I'd like to highlight. Come on, people. If you'd like to have friends with fame, I'm not the one you should befriend. I don't have any popularity. I may not be the girl everyone's been talking about all year. No, I'm not. I'm just an average avid blogger who shares my life story with readers I don't even know. But I'm thankful for that. For having strangers who are interested to know more about my life and make it a guideline for them one way or another. And I love my readers for that.
Anyway, it's already mid November. I'm putting hopes on still going to USS this December. I mean come on. I longed for it when I was pregnant. To go after I'm done with confinement. But yet again, I still haven't gotten my wish. I MUST go before my tummy gets bigger. But obviously I'm stubborn cos I'm gonna be hella nausea once I ride the roller coasters. Hahaha! Nvm. I want both my children to experience going to USS while in my tummy. I know that's kinda ridiculous but what else could a mother craving to ride roller coasters ask for?

THE LIFE I LIVE

2011-11-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

Look how cheerful we trio seemed =)

Well, after series of events that happened I decided to come clean. Sorry for the sudden and unexpected things I did that triggered the anger in both of you but I just wanna be alone.. I wanna keep it low to avoid misinterpretation of my good intentions. What I did was probably not really what the real me would do but I guess people change and I wanna change for the better. I realise where I stand so I shall back off. Truth be told, I miss yall but well let's just put it as I'm dead or something, k?

So anyway it's been super long since I updated my blog.... Why? Cause I've been superbly busy! Gosh the exhaustion I face... Life seems hectic. So I have yet to share about my wondrous trip to kampung during Hari Raya Haji which was super memorable and I have to say, I miss kampung so much already. And then the recent incident where Rayyan was admitted to hospital and I had a long stay there just to accompany my lil angel. Hmm.. Now's probably not a good time to mass post on the past events but I promise you guys I will! Life hasn't been good so far but I guess this is it. The part where life is on the downs and where the weight is too heavy to go up. Nevermind. I remain patient.
I desperately wanna change my blogskin since it's getting old and I'm bored of it. But I'm out of ideas. Any kind soul who's a whiz kid in editing and creating blog templates to help me out? =)

Anyway from what I have learnt, I shall not trust people easily and I shall not get too attached to friends. My life is all about my kid, my husband, and my fetus growing in my tummy. That's all that matters and I have my parents and siblings to support me through thick and thin. I don't mean to hurt anyone through this journey cos all I've ever did was be there to give good advice and gave some support when my friends had issues. I was there for them. But overall, people don't appreciate. That's just about it. I guess I knew it from the start. Friends come and go...

SHIVER FEVER

2011-11-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

Hi I thank God for today.. For the health of my son and for the settled problems.

So what happened? Rayyan was admitted to the hospital. It was pretty tragic. Him being 4 months and already have to undergo hospital treatment... It hurts. As a mother. To see him having to go through this. So he was having high fever before he was admitted and we brought him to the doctor but it didn't help then on the evening of 9th Nov as he was having diarrhea the whole day, blood was present in his stool so we decided to rush to KKH before anything bad happens. And just as I expected, he got admitted after midnight and me being so worried and panicked, prayed every moment I could for him to recover quick throughout the 4 days stay there. Don't get me wrong, I did wish he won't get admitted but he was dehydrated and he refused to drink so there was no other choice.

The stay at hospital was quite emotional. Other than the devastation of my son having to go through high fever and diarrhea which hurts a lot, obviously a lot since he's a baby.. Then him having to experience iv drip for hydration and antibiotics. There were other depressing issues I had to overcome which are personal but just to share with you, I been through shits. Sigh.... Thank God it's all over now and I'm pretty happy with the situation now besides some other unsettled unhappiness going on but I'll cope. I have faced the pretty impossible for someone my age. 4 nights having to sleep on the hard foldable bed, with different babies crying every night... Stressful, if you asked. But somehow I miss the whole hospital experience, too. Haha can't believe I'm saying this.. Because when I was there I was wishing all day to finally go home.

Overall the experience was appealing since I got to meet a lot of people... The mothers of babies warded. Friendly nurses and doctors. Annoying nurses and doctors. Adorable little boys who cry every night looking for their mums. Even babies left every night by their heartless mothers to survive the nights alone. It was kinda disappointing. But my grandma did a good job attending to this particular baby whenever his parents left. I bet my grandma felt like kidnapping him to call her own. Hahaha! I guess it was a tragic yet warmhearted struggle.

First time being in a baby ward filled with cots

my sweetheart with his weak face :(

Iv on his foot

His fatty bom bom friend

Love you the most

HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

2011-11-08T12:51:00.126+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah my Hari Raya Haji this year, I got the opportunity to celebrate with my parents, siblings and relatives. I feel that it's been ages since I had a get together like this. And let alone, how many years have I not balik kampung. So it was damn awesome.. I loved the whole adventure. I wish it lasted longer. So where do I begin? Perhaps a pictorial.

Day 1 - Barbeque

Day 2 - Korban

Very mischievous cow

They had a very rough time tryna catch this cow.

The moment when they invite us to takbir along.. And as we takbir, they sembelih.. That caught my heart. I know we're not supposed to cry but I cried. It was very emotional. Don't worry I didn't eat the meat anyway.

Trash incineration - Kampung style

Look at the moon and the surrounding circle of light idk whatever you call it. No effect, it's caught on camera.

FINALE - Back to Singapore

Sayaaaaang atok!

The amazing scenery. Just love it.

Dropped by Taman Indah the one which has Jusco megamart, for lunch

So we had lunch at A&W and I suggested it... It was major disappointment. Tak lazat langsung.

The only yummy part was the coke float. The trademark of A&W

Twister fries not even appealing.

I guess the next time I'm gonna balik kampung is only when Rayyan is all grown up with the ability and knowledge of walking and maybe some talking...
It's right what they say. You won't miss them till they're gone. I didn't cherish the times when my gramps and uncle were living under the same roof as us. I did not heed their advice. I kinda disliked their presence. I kept complaining on how they took up a room which led to the lack of space for my many siblings. But what I didn't do was appreciate they were there. And now I realized that it's been years since I last went there. Had spent quality time w nenek and atok back then when I was much younger. Now that I finally get to meet them again at kampung, it brings back old memories and how so much have changed. Now I'm back w a son and I'm married. And nenek and atok has become moyangs. It's kinda emotional when it comes to this. Now I'm back to reality. Where problems and stress never seem to go away. Kampung is the only place I feel free and safe. No matter how it lacks of modern civilization and Internet. It gave me the epiphany that without Internet life is much easier. No worries on social crap. Everything just seems right without the availability of Internet, computer, and perhaps form of communication. There's no need to care about friends or anyone else. Just me and my son and my family... That's enough. But it just lacks of one person - husband.

Hmmm I pray day and night for things to change and be better. No point stressing over it all the time when I know nothing will change. Just pray and stay patient and strong. Insyallah.

HALLOWEEN

2011-10-31T18:30:00.005+08:00

Hi there the weekend was plain cos we didn't had any plans to go out since we're cash tight. Hmm so today which is the exact Halloween date, I've decided to make up for fun. As a kitty cat!
How was your Halloween, everyone?
Anyway my nose part is pretty screwed up because I decided to follow exactly like the tutorial when I could actually shrink the size so yeap, a lil awkward there. I made the cat ears myself cos I can't afford to go Daiso just to buy one for an impromptu idea. And I've actually did a vlog but I changed my mind on publishing it cos husband finds it so hilarious. Sigh... T.T he's sucha meanie.

Ok Happy Halloween! \(^o^)/

SURPRISE

2011-10-27T18:20:00.002+08:00

So I guess there's no point keeping it a secret.... for long.
If you're my twitter follower, you might probably know already that Rayyan is getting a sibling! Haha
Yep. I can say that I'm pregnant again. Although I only tested twice and the recent one was positive..
See!

So the thing is this was tested on 20th Oct and Lynn was there with me when I tested this cos she bought for me the test kit since she wanted to pay for my cab fare but I told her to buy me the kit instead. Haha. And she was the first to congratulate me... Hmm the feeling was inexplainable. Cause honestly I was 50/50 on this. I thought about the consequences. But I got some assurance from husband since he's just so dedicated to have a second child right now. And he strongly wants a girl. Which I do too. And weird enough, somehow I'm hoping to get twin girls. However, the possibility is uncertain.

My first test done was at poly on the 5th of this month which turned out negative then I had an appointment for another test but I missed it cos if yall wanna know I have the laziest ass to go poly. Seriously. Hmm when I got negative I was kinda upset, a little.. Cos I was expecting for a positive. Despite the doubts, fears and worries on stuffs that are bound to occur. And also the usual nausea I was beginning to face everyday. Hmm and gladly enough, alhamdulillah here I am encountering my 2nd pregnancy as a fetus grows in my tummy once again.
Looking at the bright side, my hosp bills for checkups are free since I'm still under csc and the age difference between Ray and his coming sibling won't be too far... Like old people say, buku sekolah tak jauh. Hahaha it's in fact, true.

So now I say, before you try to even judge me again and try to kill me with financial bullshits and all, you jolly well think of it this way. A child is a gift from God. I am up for this challenge. Preferably twin girls...
HAHAHA whassup w me and twin girls ya allah sakitnya dua kali ganda... ish! But I was just picturing Rayyan being the big bro and his twin sisters will be like Mary Kate and Ashley......... Haha banyak berangan la aku. Shall go poly for a double confirmation soon. Very soon.

Congratulations, mummy's tayang you're gna be a big bro! mwah

CHILLIN'

2011-10-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hi yesterday we went to town just to chill.. It was a pretty impromptu idea, last minute.

Well thing was, husband and campmates have their off days these weekdays so they took the chance to go out even for a fact that we were all cashtight, just to spend the opportunity. If I'm not mistaken the plan was made in a group but resulted in only 2 of Yan's friends coming down. Hahaha. Chilled at Scape which was considerably quite deserted except for the people playing sports as weird as handball. The guys just can't stop critisizing them saying it's a useless game and all. Hmm... guys. Then as the guys went on with their convo, I tried to fix a meetup w Fifi since the mini family were at ION. So we finally got to meet again. Haha I always miss her so easily eventhough at times she can be superbly annoying to me but she's still the sweetest!

Ish that lucky babe got an instax as a gift from her future in-law and then we took a pic and she gave me to keep in my purse. How sweet I'm gonna cryyyy haha jkd. Hmmm... I had a good time.

Haha Imma fatty bom bom just like alfie. ONLY IN THIS PIC hehe

Ah yela part group shot je muka tu macam. Tsk

GIRLS WILL ALWAYS BE GIRLS

2011-10-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

So guess what?
The luvvy girls came over yesterday!

Hehehehehehe imagine my cheekiness. I savor every moment of it since I was a loner at home. Haha kidding! So bestfriend, Nadirah and Diyanah made my evening. First time meeting Diyanah and gosh, is she so pretty and tall. Not that the other two babies aren't pretty la. I was surrounded by pretty girls. Nyeahaha! They were so entertained by Ray........ and my expensive straightener. Haha! Damn shoulda snap pics of them straightening Snooki's hair. Her hair turned from bird nest ends to wow! Haha kk kidding again. But really her hair is pree spoilt but the ISO straightener does wonders. Just look at my dipdyed ends which instantly turns straight and fresh. Those ugly, bleached bitch ends are just devastating. Back to the story.

Basically we did what girls do. Talk and talk and talk. Bitched abit.... Abit only. Lol. And well yeah, camwhored just for the fun of it! Sigh... It's been long since Mairah and I went out together and spent time together. Like really just plainly she and I. But nvm she always have another bestfriend...... :X HAHAHA k shuddup dee.
Girls please come again someday perhaps a sleepover then we can have pillow fights and just be in undies. Hahahaha why not... I want more girls time pls!! I love girls. Mhmmmm yummz! Eek no I just love my girlfriends mwah mwah mwah xoxo

my lil sis is at the back don't get spooked!

CHUNKFEST

2011-10-17T18:43:00.057+08:00

The weekend was pretty engaging.

It was my first time attending Ben and Jerry's Chunkfest and to begin with, it was quite interesting. We went with Syam and Kiki and since they've been annual guests for 3 years now, they said it sucked and was boring compared to previous years. It was pree boring since we came by evening and the grass was all muddy at Marina Bay Promontory. So us with a pram, we had to stay put on the wood section while the B&J lovers went to explore the stalls. I thought of having my taste buds indulged in the exclusive flavour of B&J from Usa but it was kinda unworthy. A cup for 6$? You kidding me. My heart is only and only for Marble Slab I love you Marble Slab. But I did get to taste what the couple bought. One of em was super disgusting it was Spice Chocolate and it tasted of fish. I just had to spit it out. Eww. And the other one was acceptable. Err.. I forgot what it's called but something to do with chocolate too.

We then had a tedious walk all the way to Marina Square. Thumbs up to 3 weekends in a row at Marina Square! Hahaha. Since we hadn't eaten, we had our very first meal of the day at Ljs and then we roamed around... Entering the same shops we always do whenever we go Marina Square. Don't yall face that too? Hehe. For supper, we laid back at Starbucks with a cup of venti Chocolate chip frappe or something. I was bloated. At the end of the day we ditched a ride home as Ayah fetched us. Hehe the beauty of having a dedicated father in-law. Overall, I fancied the evening as Rayyan was very well behaved and enjoying the whole trip at town.
At night we went over to visit Dinie at Segar since he broke another arm. Had a long night as they chit chatted away and I was all the way yawning and tearing I was just too exhausted to participate in their convo. Hahaha I had a great weekend! <3

Guys and their phones

3 YEARS OF LOVE

2011-10-10T16:58:00.053+08:00

Today marks the day Yan and I first met in 2008. So if you do your maths, we have been 3 years in love! =)
And just to acknowledge, our marriage has reached 7 months. *claps*

We had actually celebrated our anni a lil advanced which was yesterday since army man has to train his ass off on weekdays. We had a simple yet great weekend. We just did some shopping... Husband treated me some tops and bottoms which he personally chose for me ^^ Saturday we headed to Bugis then Marina. Our signature trademark of eating Marble Slab everytime we go to Iluma. My cravings are fulfilled eventhough it increased my sore throat! And then yesterday Husband surprised me by bringing me to the place we went on our 1st monthsary. Yeahhhhh way back to our 1st month together. Lemme tell you this.... The first month we went through together was tough! Well it was afterall a new beginning. We had our differences which we hadn't settled on. Yet we pulled it through together. And I'm proud of us for this. Unfortunately my charger decided to put up a sucky attitude yet again so it didn't wanna charge my battery. Which led to no camwhoring moments. Which was upsetting. I was planning to snap a photo of a repitition or whatever you shall call it... Of us back then on 10th Nov 2008. I rummaged through my photobucket and I can't seem to find it! Sigh. But again, I was a sad kitty when we didn't get to make the same shot yesterday since we only had our phone cameras and the lighting and everything... was just bad.

Afterwards we went to Vivo, and did some shopping. It may seem boring... Maybe it was. But I enjoyed it. The time spent with Husband is just wondrous. I hope we get to do it often. And when I say often, meaning every weekend cos time is precious but money is scarce. Oh well...

To top it all off, I'd like to publicly wish Husband a Happy 3rd relationship Anniversary. We never thought we'd go this far... But I guess it's fate. And I love Soffian so much no matter how annoying and hurtful he is most of the time but he never fail to make me smile and laugh and cry all at the same time. I love you.

SICK

2011-10-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have been super feverish throughout this whole week and it sucks :(
Currently my left ear is half deaf and I'm having terrible migraine and my throat hurts super bad.... I could just cry.

I've already drowned my tummy with cooling water...air badak, air kaki tiga. Okay maybe it's abit better now I just hope I fully recover by tmr morning or else how am I gonna have the energy to go husband's place tmr! :(
Anyway tmr is the 7th. Ray turns 3 months and I'll be getting my pay I guess by midnight. Pathetic thing is my pay......sigh. Just plain pathetic. I'm hoping husband gets his pay by tmr night, maybe? We are gonna celebrate our 3rd anni in advanced this weekend ^^

Sigh.... I wanna take car license asap. I keep delaying it. Not that I don't want to. Just tryna figure out when's the best time. Hope that yall have a splendid weekend! Can't wait to meet husband tmr we're gonna go shopping on Saturday hehehe. Dengan gaji aku yg cukup-cukup buat beli movie tickets tapi tak cukup untuk beli popcorn. Haha seumpamanya la.

WAKE UP PEOPLE SEPTEMBER IS OVER

2011-10-01T01:45:00.001+08:00

Husband's asleep beside me. We planned to train our maple chars along w Zaki but sigh... my lappy got rejected at maple gateway and I donch know why so nevermind la I take this time to blog. First of all congratulations to my favourite mummy gf Shahfini who is celebrating her 3rd anniversary with Hirman. 9 more days it will be my turn with Yan. 6 more days Rayyan turns 3 months. How time flies... Ohya if I'm not wrong Nabeel turns 3 months today? Yay to mummy Lyna =) Okay so main thing is October is filled with many excitements cos there are many people I know having birthdays and all. So many stuff going on. So lemme share a few random memorandums.

This boy Haidar is a very sweet boy and I miss him. Sigh... I ever mentioned before that I cried cos I missed him when I was pregnant. I can recall him kissing and rubbing my baby bump. His mischief, going around and grabbing all my stuff cos he's just so curious. Hmm... Haidar, where are you?? Come meet baby Hayder k.

This one is Fidah, my best raving partner. Lol I don't mean rave dance but rave rant. She's a mother of two and I'm proud of her cos hell yeah she's strong! The first and only time we've met each other was when I came to visit her when she gave birth to Maya. Eventhough we started off as tweethears, I feel that we are kinda close. Yeah I mean it. Like bestfriend close. Cos we never fail to contact each other let it be whatsapp or twitter. She listens to my problems the best! *winks* Seriously wanna meet her again soon since we live quite near. Insya'allah if time permits.

This guy ah, very handsome one. Charming summore. He sound me steady at Uss but I told him "can't you see I'm preggy I got hubby so sorry" Hahahaha k shuddup la. Okay I chose this picture cos I miss Uss. I don't mean to brag that I've went there twice but what's the point if I didn't get to ride the coasters? Tell me about it. Hmmm but the experience was great. I am looking forward to December cos husband kinda promise we can go again on December cos there's gonna be new roller coaster, Transformers. So people, want to go uss? Go December k. That's if it's true about the new ride thing.

So I decided, heck care with my face la I know it's pathetic but I want yall to focus on Rayyan upon birth. Cute kan? Tiuttttt sekali. Mummy likey. It was a heartwarming moment for me. See how white and small he is. I will never forget the moment I gave birth to him. Things have been going smooth with handling Ray and he's getting even more cheekier. Waiting to hear his first laughter! I'm thinking... and hoping. I wish that I could pour all my love for him. Just him. Apart from my husband. I really love Rayyan alot and he means the world to me. When all else seems like shit, be it my personal or social life, I think of him and I forget about giving up. He's my inspiration. He's just the best thing that happened to me. Hope husband doesn't get jealous that I say this but no la of course I love husband also cos he is the best guy I could ever have in my life despite his nonsense and mulut celupar mintak kene jahit. Hehe love these two boys in my life till eternity.

I like your smile I like your vibe I like your style.. But that's not why I love you.
Hehe k I know it's not really suitable to dedicate to a baby but hey, my baby's got swag too you all tahu apa. hahahahaha jkd!

Okay now.... Doesn't mean I don't blog about you I don't think of you. These are the random people on my mind tonight. Yet I still think of my lovable Shahfini. And Syamickey who finds me huggable. Ummairah Snooki I don't know where you've been and I miss you you're still my only bestfriend but sometimes I feel that I'm not your bestfriend but it's okay.. I'm happy as long as you're happy. Myra I also miss you.
And...... another girl I think of at times like this is none other than my minah kecyk, Yanna. She might be a minah but I love her. Idk what happen to her now but hope you're doing good, okay. You were there to share my excitement when I was pregnant in my earlier stages and you were all excited to meet my baby but till now you mia. But it's okay.. Alahai my post today like dedication post aready. Hehe goodnight happy weekend!

WORK YUR ASS

2011-09-30T22:08:00.007+08:00

Shagged faces

Thursday was my 3rd day of work, it was hectic. Little did I know Cotton On is having 50% sales till Sunday but as usual they make it look too good to be true and I get more than 5 questions asked whether this or that item is on sale or not.

Upon coming in 4 minutes late cos I was drifted away while chilling w Fifi who was also working at the same shift but Bugis outlet, and I just had to go to the loo first, the clothes on the whatever you call it uh the display rack or promotion table or something were everywhere! I also dk what the manager do la. And as usual, I cover the whole floor and lemme tell you I had to fold the clothes gazillion times and they just get messed up again. Oh no surprise I guess people get crazed over sales. The rack up during closing was super pressurizing I swear I felt like breaking down and cry only to see my manager finally helping with the rest. At the end of the day, I was flat on the bed and Friday which is today my body was at 2% energy level despite sleeping for more than 8 hours. Overslept I guess? Or perhaps this week was just a really bad week for me.
But no worries cos October is finally here and October babies are turning a year older this month. One of em is my mummy =)

LIKE MUMMY LIKE BABY

2011-09-29T02:36:00.004+08:00

Hi most of my girls in twitter say that Ray has my smile... Cos I twitpic our pic when I was at lot 1 ytd. Hehe

Ytd husband and campmates had a night out so we decided to hangout awhile at lot 1 and I brought Ray along for a breather. Hahaha baby also wants to jalan-jalan. And Fifi also came down to meet Man. Sadly Syamickey neh come down haiz weak ah lu b.

I enjoyed spending time with husband for the past two days. Tuesday he also had a night out but got to book in the next day. It's okay.... Wait for you to ord oh then we can have the time of our lives like we used to. Enjoy like there's no tmr and stuff. I love you.

Haiz working later today. Worked for only twice and this will be my 3rd time and I already feddup. Haha pathetic.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENEK

2011-09-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

It's my family's tradition to celebrate our relatives' birthdays. I mean, yeah most people do but for us, we HAVE to do it. It's not a must, but a want. Just to make that someone have a special day on their birthday.

So this September, it's my granny's birthmonth. I know it's shameful of me not to know the exact date. Hahaha. But we had a great time. Amidst all the tragedy going on recently, I'm thankful it's all over and we did get to make our granny happy. Last Saturday, we surprised her with Secret Recipe's cheesecake and a whole table of delicacies. Happy to see my nenek smile =)

Her wonderful grandchildren :) From my family, that is.

The gifts of love

And I guess the only gift I could present her with is the advanced birthday present of a great grandson :')

VIVO

2011-09-22T23:30:00.032+08:00

Hi today we went to vivo cause I wanted to spend my co gift card.
K I know I know... why go vivo's co? Cos some kpo makcik nak tag along pasal kalau tak Syamsiah and I only wanted to go to Lot 1's. HAHAHA k sorry tayang I was just kidding =))

So Syamsiah brought Sara tiuty and Fifi brought Alfie baby. And lemme tell you co is kinda stingy, only giving 100$ for us to spend on clothes for at most 3 months? I can't even buy 2 pairs of jeans! Sigh but well with staff discount I got a pair of jeans, a top, a romper and a pencil skirt! Plus a headband and necklace... just to finish the total amout. I.need.more.jeans. Cause eventually, I don't own jeans. Okay actually I do, like those nice ripped jeans but I can't fit in anymore. Story of my life, sigh...

Anyway we had dinner at ljs, as usual. Say vivo, eat ljs. Hehe *peace* And the experience sucks cause it's the first time ever I lost my appetite because......the rice was not cooked properly. And when I went to redeem a new set, the rice was still disgusting. Like pulut. Or lontong. Or whatever you can think of. I ended up just eating the cajun chicken which isn't even that grilled. Thumbs down for ljs.
But apart from all those I'm glad I had fun with my girls. They complete me. Hehehe *cheeky*
Can't wait for err.... uss outing perhaps? Let's!

SANDTOSA

2011-09-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since my feet are dipped in sand and sea.

So last Friday night, we went streaking in the park. Skinny dipping in the dark...

Hahaha just kidding. We didn't do those. But hell yeah I've gotta tell you I enjoyed it! As usual, the beaming sun kissed our skin. The 3 of us girls, Syamsiah, Fifi and I, we planned not to play in the water. So we decided to do what girls do best, camwhore! The guys had their own fun time playing in the water and bury one another in the sand. Let's just allow the pictures do the talking =)

The dudes having fun with sand. Haha!

Beach couples

After washing up, we headed to Vivo for the dudes to meet the rest. Hahaha take note of these faces. Possibly future saviors of our nation *winks*

And I can't deny, I had super duper fun with my girls. ♥

FIRST DAY OF WORK

2011-09-14T15:56:00.003+08:00

Working. I doubt every adult loves it. It's just a matter of needing to work... Not wanting. I can bet that everyone would love to go back to school. Don't you think so?

So yesterday was my very first day of work after a year of unemployment. It was not bad, quite fun. Thing about sales is that you have to stand for hours whether you like it or not. Wonder how full timers cope with that. My job was pree simple. Folding clothes... Racking up. The usuals. And the friends I made, they were nice. Only met two girls so far and did closing with this girl who happens to have the same name as my bestfriend. Hehe. Pathetic thing was that my working slot for the week is only yesterday. How sad....
On the other hand, Syamsiah also had her first day of work but in another outlet. I'm thankful enough eventhough I'm posted quite far atleast the store's small and I only had to deal with ladies' apparels. Hehehe. But I would have to say, how I wish I could work under kids section!!

K so we have a triple date plan this Friday to Sentosa I hope it goes well cos believe me, I've been wanting to go Sentosa for so long since I was pregnant! Time for dipping my feet in sand and sea! Mmmmm....

FAMILY BONDING

2011-09-11T18:52:00.047+08:00

2 weeks of Raya and I finally get the chance to go raya with my parents and siblings yesterday. I regret not having to visit my relatives, gramps... Sigh. Insya'allah next year okay. Insya'allah next year I buy my own car! *cross fingers*

So my family went pink! =) favourite colour. If yall don't already know..
It was fun. Although I was a lil bit moody due to some reasons one of which is that my lil sis dropped my iphone and my screen protector got retardedly scratched. Fml. We went to a total of 3 houses only cos we left in the late afternoon and they were only friends of my parents. Plus, I love the fact that I did not perspire like fuck like all the other days. Hahaha!
Easy said, it was worthwhile.

love this

SHEESHA

2011-09-10T16:44:00.054+08:00

Hi today marks the day of my 6th month of marriage with Husband.❤

So it's been ages since Yan and I both watch movies together. We rarely do. And as a last minute plan, we headed off to Iluma last night (TGIF!) to catch Bad Teacher with the other couple, Syamsiah and Zaki. Yan and I arrived late cos somebody was too tired that he went the wrong way -.- hehehe then before going into the cinema we bought what we craved for... marble slab ice cream! The usual. But this time, rocher + peanut butter ice cream with snickers and nutella. Haiz heavenly! *drools* Sesiapa belum try, sila try! And eventually we entered the cinema during this boobies scene. LOL what a joke. And basically it was about this teacher eagerly wanting a boob job and stuff. Yall should watch it if you haven't! M18 ehhh...

The movie ended towards midnight and we don't know where else to go so I thought.... since its bugis why not go sheesha cos it's been almost or more than a year I have not smoked sheesha. Hehe and anyway Syamsiah gave the idea first. If I'm not wrong. It so happens to be that the dudes' friends were there too so we went to this place, Bazuka Cafe. Got a raspberry sheesha, a jug of cranberry vodka (I know I broke one of my not-to-do promises but it was not drink to get drunk *winks*)... Passed time. Kinda dull session but it's alright. After that Syam and Yayan went off while husband and I went to grab a quick late night beverage at Mcafe. Dbl choc frappe, caramel frappe, and two choc melts. I know I've been wanting it so badly but now I'm already bored of it.

On top of it all, I urged Yan to quickly ride home because my tummy couldn't take it. It was just grumbling like hell. What not? Green tea, ice cream, frappe, sheesha, choc melts, vodka, and mi goreng earlier on. HAHAHA all like rojak already in my tummy. Overall, I did have fun. Thanks for the day guys! And special thanks to husband for the random impulse/impromptu outing. Dah lama tak keluar enjoy kita berdua je. ❤

HAPPY 2MTHS AYYAN

2011-09-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Rayyan, happy birthday to you!

Hehehe k no la actually it's only his 2 months birthday but still! I wanna make it a point to commemorate every month of his birthday to record his developments.... How big he has grown from time to time. Then when he grows up atleast he gets to see these special moments. Don't forget! I've already planned for his 1 year birthday party! Hehehe perhaps at a chalet or by the beach. Maybe RWS?? Yayyyyyy sounds fun! Haha

So as you can see his granny bought a mini birthday cake for the mini yan and we somehow had a lil celebration. When I blew the candles I wished for him to grow up to be a good boy and anak yg soleh. Insya'allah.

FIRST LADIES.

2011-09-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

Hi I had a girls raya outing yesterday and it was fun! After like..... 2(?) years of separation we're finally reunited. Miss those times together back in Dunearn.

So we started off at Fika's place and since the girls wanted to meet Ray, I brought him along. Then to Efa's, Allie's, mine, Lyana and Sabby respectively. I'm glad two chinese gfs of ours joined along wearing their baju kurung as well, they look damn gorgeous! Fayme my bestie and Ci Wen baby. The whole thing was quite tiring but I should say that Ray likes his aunties. Hehehe except for some parts where he couldn't take the heat and starts to fidget and uwekwek... lol k uwekwek sounds like duck T.T

K anyway it's a really memorable outing and ohya we all got cute hari raya letters from Ci Wen haiz why she damn sweet one! She wrote us in malay! Shall scan and post it or something. Hehe but it's in my twitpic though. Yall go see! I am pretty glad that my girls find me a much better, changed person after going through this having a child experience. I really don't wish to be the old me. I've looked different, maybe not better or prettier but it's okay. And I behave much differently now. That's what I love about me. Oh! Rayyan has turned 2 months today. I love you tiuty tayang.

personal fav (from efa's cam)

TAKBIR BERKUMANDANG

2011-09-06T00:52:00.001+08:00

Right now it's 1237hrs and I still take the time, not to sleep, but edit some pics and now updating my blog for yall to read ^^ Anyway tmr Ray turns 2 months! yayyyyz

Okay so last Sunday, I went for my so called 2nd raya outing. Hahahaha! My mini family goes pink! After years of persuading Yan to wear pink, he finally agrees and he did not regret it in fact he loves wearing pink kurung! Hehe sachok peeee sachok. Haha! K anyway, we went to a couple of houses and Ray wasn't in a pretty good mood that day so kinda had a bit of tough time handling him. And that day I wore my favourite outfit and yes I have to emphasize this because I really love it eventhough it's nothing special. Hehe n.n\/

Thankfully ayah managed to borrow a colleague's van for us to roam around. Phew! I can't stand taking public transport. As usual, the baby gets multiple times more than the mummy usually gets. Pft! But I'm happy lah. Rezeki Rayyan kan.. Siapa kata ada baby abeh tkde duit tkle tanggung? Baby akan sentiasa dapat rezeki dari mana-mana dan apa-apa cara pun. Why would God make you pregnant, give you a baby, if he won't wanna guide you? Think!

Ohya that day I went for a lil shopping at Jp's Kiddy Palace to buy some stuffs for Ray including some toys. Good thing is he has really good grip now and he is able to hold onto his toys for a few seconds, shaking it unknowingly and then lets go. Hehe my son is really developing well and quickly and I'm so happy about it... Oh ya! He has started to smile more! Not the smile in his sleep thingy, but smiling when we tease him! Hehehe and seriously he has long long eyelashes unlike me nor Yan. Even longer than mine :( Ray nak compete lashes dengan mummy, eh? And also, he's started to babytalk even more and he responds when babytalked to. Cannot wait for his 2 months birthday, hope that he'll start to laugh... Hehe soon I hope *fingers crossed*

I lup chu my baby

BERJABAT TANGAN

2011-09-04T00:49:00.006+08:00

Hi it's a Sunday nowzzz

Came back quite late from jalan raya ytd. Rayyan's green packets are proven multiple times more than what I usually get! Hahaha lucky baby. It was damn tiring but thankfully we drove from house to house by van. And the best part was gg to Kak elly's open house cos her house is damn gorgeous I just love the royal gold wallpaper and her sofas. Hehe k anyway that's all I need to sleep super tired now!

Ohya Ray's hepatitis B injection went well he only cried for awhile and he's gained weight and height! Baby ray now weighs 4.5kg. Yayyy awsum ^^

SYAWAL 11

2011-09-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

This year's Raya really isn't the same. Unlike my previous years, I didn't go out raya on 2nd day onwards. Which was kinda disappointing but I guess I'm just kinda lazy, tired and not really in the mood. But anyway next week my sec sch gfs asked me to join them for raya outing :) this will be the first ever time I go jalan raya with my own friends. Hehe k I know I'm kinda deprived but it's okay.

Hope y'all had a wonderful syawal so far. Shall spend the most of the time I have now while husband's still with me. Tmr shall go to the polyclinic for Rayyan's appointment. Goodnight xx

SALAM AIDILFITRI

2011-08-31T15:00:00.002+08:00

A'kum.. Diyanah di sini ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan maaf zahir dan batin kepada semua orang yg pernah Diyanah tersinggung hati, terkasar bahasa, terbitch, termaki, termarah dan sebagainya lah. Hope yall forgive me ok. Let it be friends or enemies. I'm so sorry I love you guys <3 *salam & hugs*

Ok hi it's the 2nd day of Raya and as I've always emphasized this yr raya ain't the same. Nothing at all. Usually today I'd be out with my family berjalan raya... Cos mum and dad always take a whole week of leave from work. Right now I'm at bp home =) Husband's sleeping -.- I bet he's just too shagged from the whole Brunei training experience then jalan raya ytd was like never before cos we took public transport. Haha. Yesterday wasn't very much interesting but atleast it was a new wonderful experience. Walaupun aku masih tk biasa with the whole thing, I'm still thankful my husband and son are by my side. I admit I do really miss going out w my parents and siblings. Cos obviously I only spent 17 years of raya with them.. I did cry. I hope mum and dad knows that no matter what, I do still love them and I miss them and all these are sacrifices we have to make and fate to accept. Currently my family are off to Jb to meet my neneks and atoks there, sigh I feel bad for not being able to join. One reason is cos Ray belum buat passport.
But I guess nothing much to share about ytd.. Just visiting relatives.... and Ray wore baju kurung alahai cute giler mintak kene gigit! Hehe

Hope yall had a splendid raya ytd and for the rest of the raya :) Insya'allah if I get to go raya with my friends and besties definitely we need apologizing session and hugging and kissing and perhaps crying? haha enjoy the raya songs and raya kuihs while they last! ❤

CAMAT ALI LAYE IN ADVANCED

2011-08-28T01:01:00.001+08:00

Bertukar senyuman dan salam

Ziarah-menziarahi

Tutur dan kata yang sopan

Saling memaafi

Hi everyone. Anak bulan hampir kelihatan. Hari Selasa hari raya! =)
So I'm up this late past midnight gonna leave a post cos I know I might not have the chance to blog after today onwards. Husband's coming home in less than 48 hours I can't wait! Surprise him with my new hair.. Ok it's not really something new cos it's just straight highlighted hair and the usual colour everytime I highlight. Sigh... I really wanted red highlights or ash grey but sadly snip ave sucks. Anyway yesterday Myra came over and I helped her bleach and highlight red streaks, they were quite ok but the colour didn't really come out. Kinda.. And I did make up for her! Didn't manage to snap a pic but I swear she look damn pretty esp that I love her natural curly lashes!!

So yeap my raya prep is aaaalmost done. Almost. I have no idea how to style my hair on raya though :( I was thinking of manicure but like lazy leh.. Maybe I'll just paint nails myself. Hmm k being a girl, a female, Raya is the time where I want to do so many things to myself. Memang lah time raya je nak sibuk2 buat ni semua buat rambut lah apelah abeh kenapa? Tk boleh? Nampaksah org nk lawakan diri on this special ocassion, kan? Unfortunately this year is kinda suckish cos my hair turned out not the way I wanted and I didn't get the wedges I longed for, got heels instead. I wonder how I'm gna survive in heels esp carrying Ray and all. Woah! Ok enough of Raya rantings.
Right now on CNA is the Presidential Election. I'm kinda not ready for a new president. But it's not really a biggie for me. Just that it's not gonna be the same. Hoping for the best!

Really no idea how this year's Raya gonna turn out. I pray that it'll be prodigious. With a new member in the club. *winks*
So anyway when I was pregnant I was obsessed with this baby pic and I made it my wallpaper in laptop and phone.. And see how adorable my baby boy turned out to be. The eyes, the londeh cheeks, the lips, the chin awwww

Macam mana aku tak geram??! n_________n

NEW LOOK

2011-08-26T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ok so I kinda sound like...... krik krik.
But whatever.... And anyway it was all impromptu I feel like doing another one cos I look so zzz esp with my flat hair it makes my face look fatter! :((((
Lesson learnt: Never go to Snip Avenue ever again
And for the last time omg I look horrible and disastrous idky my friends in twitter say i look good T.T

goodnight rayyan

THE NIGHT IS YOUNG

2011-08-24T01:51:00.001+08:00

It's been idk how long since I last vlogged but I was so bored and in the mood for an impulse vlogging!
I shall watch Nikita series till I fall asleep. Greatnight xoxx

WHO AM I?

2011-08-23T19:33:00.001+08:00

Today is a rather empty day. Or it probably is much more emptier than last night. Idk why last night I couldn't sleep I was so emotional and depressed for no apparent reason. Or maybe deep inside I do know the reason, I just didn't wanna think negative. So I just assumed that I was plain exhausted. Physically and emotionally... What's new?

So the only interesting fact about today is that Rayyan smiled twice when I played with his adorable chin. That made my day a lil brighter. And when he's just awake and fidgeting away like as if he wants to kick and run and box around, I'd babytalk to him and he'd babytalk back. I get super excited everytime! I did capture a vid of him talking his baby language but I will not post it today.
I also wanted to do my hair but maybe tmr. I've fixed my mind I'm not gonna go for extensions but I'm gonna rebond and highlight instead. I think that extensions are most probably not worth it...

HAPPY 1M2W BBYBOY

2011-08-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

My Sunday was spent as you guess it.. bazaar Geylang yet again. Hahaha I'm no minah Geylang la I just have alotta stuffs to buy.

So ytd we sent Ray to his moyang first at Kallang before we proceed to bazaar for buka. I was so eager to buy a kurung for Ray and I went to so many shops but ended up not buying cos they were all too big like even size 0 is too big. Yeah I'd get it altered but thinking back, next year he won't be able to wear it again anyway. BUT....... I just might buy it on impulse the next time I go again cos I have yet to buy summore stuffs muahahaha! Well I did spend my bucks on his stuffs like socks and pants and I overspent. Oops! *slaps head* Got my rantai and a brooch for hubby wubby. Dad got me a gelang. Ok itu aja. Hehe. The climax of ytd was... *drum rolls*.... I almost LOST MY PHONE. Yes. In the middle of bazaar Geylang can y'all believe it? So I was happily shopping and I have this habit of just holding my phone in hand cos I didn't brought a bag. So as I walked along w my parents, I noticed that my phone was missing. I asked mum cos I thought I gave it to her. She denied and I thought she was kidding until she gave a serious face. So I kanchiong alr I went back to the shops that I went previously, crashing past the crowd likka boss. I went to the prev shop A, I didn't ask. I just looked around. I was confident I didn't leave it there. So I went to the 2nd prev shop B and asked around. No hope. Went back to shop A and saw my dad there. See my dad is a pro. Ask Mairah cause the last time we were in Bintan, she misplaced her purse at the resort's shop and dad retrieved it cos he has his way. Eventhough we asked the shopkeepers if they'd seen it and they denied. So yep, I went to shop A and the auntie step mcm "Ohhhh the phone your one ah why neh say" WTF she didn't wna admit she found my phone when my dad asked until I came. So what happened was due to my carelessness. As I pay, I place my phone somewhere close, get some cash from my purse and I ttly forgot abt my precious phone. So pls let this be a lesson to yall. I am so thankful I got it back! Syukur alhamdulillah...

The rest of the day wasn't very interesting, just normal ;) But anyway I've been thinking of making a video with baby Ray! Should I? lmk! And I also wanna capture every moment I have a baby convo with him. Yes! He's responsive now with his baby language and when I babytalk to him he'd babytalk back I swear it's damn hilariously cute. And oh yes, Ray and I are done with our 44days confinement yayyyy! Time to see the playfulness emerge out of him. Oh yeah I have yet to do my hair and yes I miss my husband totally. Sigh wonder what he's doing right there right now... if he's thinking of me and ray.... I will see you again at the place I see you last. Changi Airport! :D

checkout my momma arm woah hahaha

Mummy luv this sunshine xx

SATURDAY

2011-08-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

hatsune miku matryoshka

Mushi mushi!
Hehe I woke up early morning today just to make up for my sis! She was going to a cosplay convention at Suntec and she played this anime character who has long turquoise hair which was gonna be her wig so I did turquoise makeup for her. Well for your info my sis kecik-kecik suka tengok Teletubbies and they are afterall a Japanese production so I guess from there she got hooked up in Anime and stuff. She even draws Anime!

So anyway Hi it's a Saturday =) And I recalled having my Standard Saturdays way back then. Hehe. Every Saturday was a must to go out.

Well today is as usual a stay home weekend for me. Wanted to go bazaar Geylang as I have stuffs to buy, still. But dad ain't in a good mood since ytd so whatever. Mum said we'll just go tmr. Hopefully. Anyway it's only left like 9 days till Husband is finally home. But seems like still a long way to go though. Wonder how he's doing. Raya preparations for me ain't quite complete. What about you guys? Still thinking if I should buy baju kurung for Ray. That is if size 0 is still available. Oh by the way, by day Ray is starting to resemble me even more! Hehe. Many of my tweethearts agree. Mum too. She said that Ray looks just like me when I was a baby. Aww like mother like son wahahaha! Have a good evening yall =)

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY HUSBAND

2011-08-19T21:47:00.025+08:00

8 days apart, no word from you.

But it's okay cause we'll both pull through.

10 days to go, I'll just wait and say

That I love you so much and a Happy Birthday!

Today, as you can see, my husband turns 20! =) So happy for him. We both met when he was only 17. Now 3 years have passed.

Right now he's still in Brunei. Probably in the jungle. I can't really remember but Husband was really excited back then when he kept telling me the days he would be in Mount Biang or when he's having Mission Buaya. So I guess right now he's in the jungle perhaps mission buaya? Haha lantak je aku. But anyways, I just hope that he has an extraodinary memorable birthday since this year it's a whole new experience. No surprises or birthday cake from me unlike the past 2 years :p
Sad thing is I can't even wish him by mouth cause his phone is turned off but I did leave him a message and he probably won't read it anyway. Haha but it's okay. Just praying hard he's doing well there, always safe and healthy. Wifey very worried yaknow, hubby!

Anyway I love how some people always make my day just by saying some nice things in my formspring. Yall really turned my mood around, turned my frown upside down. And I'm thankful for that. Lately my thoughts were abit disturbed by someone who find that I can't manage to take care of my son. Like what they're tryna say is that I'm a bad mummy. But whatever, I know I ain't cause yall only know how to assume and bother to mind my business which I have no idea why even. One thing for you to know. I am blessed to have a wonderful, adorable and handsome son. But I was fated to have anak pelalak. And if you have no idea how tough it is to tolerate a pelalak, don't bother tryna tell me off. I may not be a perfect mother. I may never be. But atleast I am doing my responsibilities as a mother. Some mothers may be blessed with an easy to handle baby. I don't mind. Insya'allah when Rayyan grows up he won't give me many problems. That's what old people say, kalau time kecik-kecik banyak nangis dah besar senang nak jaga. Something like that.
So as to update yall, Rayyan is doing okay. And from pictures in twitter(if you follow me) that I randomly post at times, yall can see that he dah semangat. We're still in our confinement. Perhaps a few more days till we're finally done with our 44 days =) Rayyan is pretty responsive now. I should actually snap a video of him with his mini baby languages! Hehe. And my 98237241 attempts to take a photo of him when he's smiling is a total fail. Sigh.. Nevermind the time will come. And my dream is big. For his first word to be "Allah"... ^^

WELCOME BABYGIRL

2011-08-17T14:27:00.001+08:00

Yesterday at 12.05(?)am, Maya Nur Hayfa was finally born =)

Got the news from Fifi since she was up damn early and she gave me 31 MISSED CALLS can yall believe it? I am the type who can never wake up early especially that it's hard for me to sleep at night. Insomnia I guess. We had a job interview after a stupid weird cheated attempt two days back when I went to an agency with Efa. NEVER TRUST AGENCIES. Sigh... It was only 3 days back that I was e-mailing my resume to so many employers. And I got so many calls for interviews, many of them were interesting but I had to pass the golden opportunities. Trust me, I can't go out that easy cos Ray's at home with just my maid and bibik has alot of other jobs to tend to. As for yesterday, dad took the time to come back after an appointment in the morning so I got the chance to leave by noon for the interview and syukur alhamdulillah Fifi and I got it! Want to know what job? Formspring me! Haha action eh. So anyway I was supposed to join in Fika's bday celebration but dad was hurrying me to come home. I kept telling him I was on the way but in the end I delayed even more just to visit dearest Fidah at Sgh. Sweet tak? Hehe. But sorry Fika! Hope you had a wonderful 18th birthday! ❤
Didn't have much cash on us so we just got Fidah "A new little princess" balloon. Hope it's meaningful enough for her. Lol I was expecting balloons when I gave birth but I didn't get :( But it's okay atleast I got presents :D Enough of that. First of all we told Fidah we were on the way. Which we were. And we decided to eat first at the kopitiam at sgh, well no both of us ain't fasting. Then we decided to lie to Fidah that we had to go home last minute. Lol padahal ngah rounding hospital carik barang nak belikan. Abeh so limited! We finally went up, searched for her ward and tadaaaa surprise!! ^^

To be honest readers, its our first time meeting. Haha! And we also felt awkward when her other friends came. But whatever it is, it was fun hanging out till late with her at the hospital. Janji makbapak nak balik kul 3, kul 9 baru sampai -.-
Maya on the other hand, was very lovely. When I held her in my arms, I recalled the time I just gave birth to Ray. And from the side, her facial features looks just like Ray's! She's a princess! Miaa was also very adorable especially how playful she was and when she sulked when she see her granny attending to her baby sis! Hehe why so cute oneeee. I'm very glad that everything's good now for Fidah. Thank god she had a safe and quick delivery. Our nightmare moments are over! Now all of us can celebrate Raya with our new happy families. Hope Fidah has a good rest at home and recover soon. God bless, everyone xoxox

Congratulations Nurul Afidah =)

*More photos will be in Fifi's fb*

3 DAYS DOWN 15 DAYS TO GO

2011-08-14T16:35:00.000+08:00

It's a Sunday. A bloody Sunday.

Usually it's spent with Husband my tayang tayang but as ya'll know it, he's in Brunei. Sigh y u no buy Brunei prepaid card!! So today is another stay home weekend. Don't know whether my family will be going out this evening. Yesterday was kinda interesting. It was a scary movie marathon. Hehe it's like the whole day we were watching ghost movies. Ok.
So anyway I'm hoping I could meet up with my girls this week since I also wanna get my hair done. And I need to have another trip to bazaar geylang, I want to buy the rantai tingkat! Hehehe k idky I must buy rantai tingkat every year -.- but yeah I just love them. Plus, that day we went and I checked the smallest baby kurung.. Sigh still too big. Nenek said why not just get it altered. Hmm perhaps I will buy one piece. Just for the first day? Yep.
Tmr Fidah is getting induced. Just keeping her in my prayers hopefully everything will go well. Then I can drop by and visit her at SGH as well. This time round, I will try to go out with Ray by myself. Idky I'm kinda nervous abt it. Maybe because I'm lacking the confidence. Not because of shame or embarassment ok. Just imagine Ray suddenly crying then I kanchiong in the train? Lol. It'll be so awkward. Brrr... touch wood

and a little peek into my mak-mak times. hehe

A SERIES OF EVENTS

2011-08-13T19:16:00.005+08:00

Hi so what happened?

National Day was spent hanging out w Husband's sec schmates in Woodlands. Break our fast at Botak Jones smwhere near cwp and then we chilled till late. It was kinda disappointing having to miss the fireworks at Marina but it's okay. Thr's always a next time. Besides, I've already spent the past 2 years watching fireworks with Husband for so many events. Be it New year or National day. But anyways, Happy (belated) Birthday Singapore! & a happy 16th birthday to adek Sharhan too. He shares the same birthday as Sg. =)

The next day was of course....... my 5th wedding monthsary! Ok it's nothing to celebrate about but well, atleast just to acknowledge the special date. And counting our relationship, we are 2 years and 10 months together already. Syukur alhamdulillah. 2 more months and its 3 years of love. We went out that evening to Bugis cos I wanted to buy the wedges I so longed for but ended up buying heels but of the same design instead. It's for raya! So sexcited! Planned on doing hair extension after that at Fareast but it was kinda late already so we decided to indulge in Marble Slab at Iluma. It marks the place where Yan first booked out after 3 weeks confinement when he just got enlisted. His first pay was spent treating me to that marvelous yummy ice cream. This time round we bought a pint and it was awesome! Choc swiss and rocher flavor ice cream. Mixed with nutella and snickers. It's heavenly! I bet Husband's craving for it now in Brunei. Hehe. That was it. The day of separation was just a day away. So we had to spend the most we could with each other before 18days of missing. Rayyan just stayed home w his nenek and atuk since mummy and ayah naik bike vroom vroom~ ;)

11th. Counting down the hours till Husband departs. The only time left Yan could spend with his son and wife at home. Spent the last iftar together then we got ready to go to the airport. We left at 11. The long road to Changi Airport in the lorry, one particular song totally makes me think of him all the time eversince. Dev's Dancing in the dark. Lol! It was hilarious yet sweet. He would dance to the tune. Rave, actually. As a sarcasm towards this one guy. Ahhh it's an inside joke yall won't geddit! Hehe. Upon our arrival at Terminal 2, we met up with the rest. Sad thing was, Husband didn't really used the last few minutes of the time he had to spend with me but with his friends instead. Well that's what I felt. But it's okay. Atleast I got to hug and kiss and hug and hug and kiss and kiss like countless of times before he finally stepped into the departure hall. Sigh.. That moment, I felt like tearing. But I was strong. Didn't wanna get too worked up about it. All I could do was pray for his safety and health. For theirs. Insya'allah they will come home safely and in good condition! We won't want our nation heroes to celebrate Raya with a fever or something, right? So that was it. It wasn't goodbye. It's merely farewell. I kinda regret not bringing Rayyan along but it was late at night and he was already asleep. So yep. Left with this empty feeling in my heart. Well what can I say? Husband completes me.

The last of him was his text message when he was already in the plane at like, 3am. Just hope he has fun - the tough way. Farewell, my lover❤

CELEBRATIONS

2011-08-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

Sigh I think I got fatter and I look ugly in photos. Sigh sigh sigh..

Anyway Hi =) Today is the eve of National Day. Tmr is also my brother-in-law, Sharhan's, birthday. yayyyy
Ytd Ray turned a month young. How time flies.. Can't wait for him to be a year old where he'll be walking and running and wanting to grab every little thing he sees.
Last Friday, we went to bazaar Geylang with some of Husband's campmates. Finally met up with Hannah after so long but so sad she had to leave early. Then Fifi left afterwards with Man. We chilled by the pavement beside kampung melayu till late before heading home. Well so excited that Yan and I have settled with our 1st and 2nd day baju raya! :) Still have yet to settle Ray's. Have no idea what he's gonna wear for raya. Hmm..
Ohya dearest Fidah just got discharged from hospital today. I hope she's doing good. Was so hoping Maya would come out on the 7th :( Cheated my feelings.. hehe nvm hope her induction next monday will go well. Or as she hopes, for labor to come itself naturally. Which I hoped for that time before I got induced but oh well.. Please Maya hurry up auntie Dee nak meet you la!

Ok so tmr is our nation's birthday. What r ur plans? ^^